Hyung Jin Nim
Address to ODP, Las Vegas
July 24, 2011
Unofficial notes from direct interpretation not to be used as quotes.
Please, only for personal use.
Mohammad, Buddha, Confucius would not come to Las Vegas. This city is too sinful for
them; legalized prostitution, gambling, etc.
Jesus would come, though. Why did True Father come here? New York city is not bad.
Why coming here?
You who are attending this ODP workshop are seeing all the people gambling and all
other things going on here. You must also wonder.
Jesus Christ brought the 12 disciples to a place like Las Vegas with a loving heart. True
Father brought us here to discover the heart of love.
One thing that human beings always do is to create a God image according to their
own desires. We make the image of God. Sometimes we picture Him as a cool river,
sometimes like a pleasant spring breeze. When Moses met God, He appeared like a
burning bush! Moses had to take off his shoes and bend over to cover himself. We know
fire. Jewish people saw fire every day. This burning bush must have been very scary for
Moses. An image of God as cool river water is not scary; it does not kill people.
When you meet True Father you may tremble with fear. Your whole body will tremble
with fear. In the Book of Revelation (chapter 4) all the angels (four beasts and 420
elders) bowed down to the ground and just said “holy, holy, holy.” [“Holy, holy, holy,
LORD God Almighty, which was, and is, and is to come.” Rev. 4:8], When God appears,
he is not appearing as we want but as a fearsome being. In this age, we focus on love.
However, some things are important to fear. If I break my wife’s heart by committing
adultery, I would fear the consequences. That is a good fear.
When I go around with True Father, I really feel that he is something more than
my physical father. He is God’s substantial body. In Buddhism, we are taught that
we are dung. The Messiah is ontologically different than us. He represents the dual
characteristics of God. It was the same with Adam and same with Jesus.
We, all the people in the world, are the descendents of Adam and Eve. Adam and Eve’s
children come out of the creative power that God gave to human beings. We did not
directly come out of God’s dual characteristics.
First, God is the Creator. We are the created beings. The created being has no right in
front of the Creator. We have no rights whatsoever. He created us out of dirt. There is
nothing that God is obliged to give us. We are simply created beings. In this relationship,
God has all the rights. He gave us life and can kill us a moment later. He is still God; a
good God. As a creator, there is no obligation from the created being to the Creator. He
does not need to make our lives successful or good.
Second, we are all sinners. Say, “I am a sinner.” [I am a sinner] Look at your heart and
mind when you utter those words. What did you feel? Repentful? Good? Some of you
may say that these people in Las Vegas are the sinners, not me! We want to claim that
Stalin, Lenin, Hitler are the sinners, not me. They committed all the heinous crimes. Do
you not have that feeling? It is pretty common.
While I grew up in this church I thought I was a righteous person. I did everything right
as TF asked me to do. I offered difficult devotions for over 10 years. I did not drink,
smoke, date or do anything else. I thought I was at least better than the person over there.
Look closely into yourself. Do you not think that when you walk around in the casino?
This was the sin of the Pharisees, those who killed Jesus. It is a great sin. We think that
we worked hard and offered everything up to God. However, all acts of righteous people
are like “dirty rags” in front of God. (Is. 64:6)
When we think of it, we cannot make any claim in front of God. Even if Mother Theresa,
who lived her whole life for other people, goes in front of God, she will realize that all
that she did was like dirty rags.
We are all sinful, dirty people part of Satan’s family and without value. We are not
special. We are not important. Even if God kills us with a flood judgment tomorrow, we
cannot say anything. As we concluded earlier, God has all rights.
When I was a high school student, my attitude was like one of the Pharisees, even though
I was a true child, a second generation. We were never told we were sinners, which we
were. We were told we were God’s pride and hope. I thought I could go before God. I
thought that because I had no original sin, that I was not a sinner. However even lacking
original sin, who has not committed sin?
People in the world understand that murder or rape are sins. Howerver, we know from the
providence of restoration sin is to hurt God, to lower God’s esteem, God’s heart, etc.
People who blamed God, saying that they deserve a thanks from God because of their
great works. That is a sin. Remember, I am saying this to you because I love you. These
are not easy words to hear. They are not making anybody popular. In front of God, we
are all sinners. We cannot go in front of God for eternity. That is a fact. In front of the
perfect God, sin cannot appear. We are automatically repelled from God. So do not take
this badly. In front of God, be like a true child. I am a sinner. Always confess that in front
of members. I also did blame God, so “I do not deserve this!” Because I am a sinner. We
cannot go in front of God.
There is only one reason that we are God’s children. That we are good parents, buying
ice cream for children, and do other “good” things do not count. All these acts are like
diry rags. We are all sinners. I am a sinner. There is only one reason we can go in front of
God. The blood of True Parents; not because of the blood of satan. Not because we have
qualification to receive anything from God. We are just a mass of flesh.
It is only because a son sent by God, that we can have life. When God looks at me, how
will He see you? Young? Handsome? Righteous? From God’s point of view, we look like
right out of a horror movie. Covered in blood; the blood from True Parents. When God
looks at us, He will only see sins. Yet, He does not see that because he is only looking at
the blood.
I sometimes look at marshal arts wrestling. I like it. When you look at a fight, the
audience gets excited when one contender gets knocked out. It pleases me too. Before my
repentance, I did not know who True Parents were. Until I understood that I can not go in
front of God without the blood of True Parents, I myself was bad.
Some people think that repentance is dark and not good. If your heart gets darker
through repentance, you are not doing repentance in the correct way. Only through
correct repentance can you end up more happy. Repentance does not mean that you
hate yourself. Self-intoxication and self-hatred are the same. The person who loves
himself and the person who hates himself is you. The point is that you concentrate on
YOURSELSF. Self-love and self-hatred are the same. It is to focus on yourself. You need
to focus on God, not on yourself. The repentance must make you feel fulfilled. Focus on
God.
Without repentance, you cannot have a deep shimjeong relationship with God and True
Parents. I guarantee that 100%. If you think you can be as good as True Parents, you
cannot obey True Parents. Old things have to die and new things have to appear. Eternal
life, blessing and grace have to appear. Without repentance, your stiff shimjeong cannot
be softened.
My life, my fortune, my dream are what we seek. We spend a fortune to buy our own
dreams. The American dream.
What are you going to do after death? What would you do if you could go in front of God
forever? If you call True Parnts, they will not recognize you. Mt 7:22-23 says, it is really
fearful—the day of your death “Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we
not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done
many wonderful works? And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart
from me, ye that work iniquity.” We always say that we love True Parents. However just
saying that does not mean that we can go to God.
Do you think your life is important? Your dream? Your wish? Your hopes? Do you think
that they are important? When I started to serve True Parents, I gave up my dreams. My
hopes—I killed them. No vision statement. I cannot have hope or desire in front of True
Parents. Being 24/7 in front of God, it is not possible. My vision of myself would be as a
Lord of joy and victory. I can do a lot. I am energetic. I am 33 years old. I can do a lot of
things. I can make a personal mission statement a la Tony Robins—I have done all that.
Yet now I have no dream of mine. I have a cell phone but no dream. Only one dream: TP
glory. I am a son of TP but at the same time I am a slave of TP. It is really hard to hear
that, is it not? I am not even a servant. I am a slave. Nevertheless, I am happy and feel
glory. Nevertheless. I am a slave. I am not even a servant of servant.
“Job well done My faithful servant.” In the original Greek, it is slave, not servant. What
is the difference? Servants can work all day and get paid. They can quit. Slaves cannot
quit. They must be available 24/7. They cannot go the master and tell him about their
dreams and hopes. No right. Absolute obedience. 100% the slave depend on the master.
Slave has to worship the master. The Bible says that you cannot serve two masters. Only
one. That is the joy of your life.
I studied Confucius. I was really surprised. When you think of filial piety, this is similar
to being a slave in western thought; a son who lives and dies for his father. I saw in my
Father, that he wants that 100% obedience that Confucius described. There is no Lord
without slaves. They need each other. It is a dependent relationship. Therefore if we
believe in TP through DP, when we testify to them, we have to say that we are the slave
of TP. The person who wants to live will die. Those who want to die will live. (Mt 16:25)
I am TP son. I know this 100%. At the same time, I am TP’s slave. It is my joy and my
glory. When I die, that is my fortune. Of course, it would be a sin to boast about that. So I
have to be careful. (joke)
When I studied about filial piety, I was amazed how children treated their parents. They
did not have any own dream or hopes of their own. Filial piety in front of TP!
Sometimes, I feel a little frustrated. I have to follow TP all day. I cannot even check
email. Once I took my elder sister to the airport. TF became so angry. How dare you
do that when I am holding HDH? I could say nothing to TF. Sometimes, I think if HDH
is finished by 9, I can go to the dentist appointment at 10:30. But I have to get rid of all
those thoughts.
When I go in front of TF, I feel very special. When you are in front of TF, do you think it
is like you are in front of a nice stream or brook? “No” they said.
In CIG and in the spirit world, do you think it will be like a vacation? That is not reality.
When we go to the Kingdom of Heaven, there will be a King. God exists. TP exists.
There will not be like having a pina cloada (light rum, coconut cream and pineapples)
on the beach—that is when you are the king. When I sit in front of TP, I am extremely
fearful. I get hit once, twice. I just wanted to run away. That is because I am a sinner.
I felt that I was sitting right in front of God. When He smiles, I smile. When He is not
happy, I am not happy. That place in front of God, is the KOH. God hits us when He
wants, He scolds us when He wants. We want His will to be fulfilled. That is the KoH.
In the spirit world, we will never get pain in our legs from sitting etc. In one moment, I
can be thrown into the fires of hell. I cannot say anything. Being in front of TP is difficult
physically. TF really has the body of the returning Lord. It is difficult for the leaders here.
Once I got rid of my dreams, there is nothing more joyful than being with TP. The most
joyful love of TP is far beyond any joyful moment with my wife or anything else.
The fact that I can be in front of God is a great privilege. He is the TP that loves me. His
shimjeong is amazing. In my heart I fear Him. I feel incredible gratitude and love in front
of TP. Even if I live like this for eternity, it would be a good eternal life. Even if I give
pain to TP, even if I am a sinner, this is a good life.
I want to train you. I want to give you an item of homework: If TF holds HDH for 10
or 12 hours, I usually drink fruit drinks after the speech. Maybe you have backache. Or
become sore. Whenever you feel the limitations of your body after 10-14 hours, try to
really give up your own thinking. Try to think that the KoH is here. I am in position of
going to Hell. Now I am sitting in front of TF. Get hit. Smile. Try this.
Once sitting right in front of TF, I thought that I can endure 4 hours, max. I was
imagining doughnuts and lovely bakery items. After 10 h, I gave up on any such thought.
He could speak forever. As I gave up everything, I could see the calm river water. Do
that. That is your homework next time you see TP.
I did not say that you are sinners, because I like it. My saying may seem strong to you.
Slave may seem a strong expression. The day will come when you have to shed your
body. The American dream and having cute kids and so, would be nice. Grass in front
yard. Do not buy that dream because it will not make you happy. Maybe you want to
retire early and live by the beach. Do not buy that dream. You have to live for something.
Then you have to die for something. Then you can go to Eternity. Please live and die for
the sake of TP.
When we meet each other in spirit world at TP feet, we can shed tears together. We
can call each other brothers and sisters. And we can feel grateful. At the time we could
say we had a dream. It is not an American or a temporal dream. We did not buy those
dreams. We died. We lived and died for the glory of TP. Of course we cannot be proud
of the glory of whatever we have done in front of TP. On that day, God will tell you have
done a job well done. Otherwise, God will say that He never knew you, because you
bought a different dream. When you go to spirit world and God says that you did not live
for me, that is hell. If He does not recognize you, that is hell. I beg you, do not buy that
(common) dream.
Repentance is, I am crying but I am happy. I did not prepare this talk. I did not prepare.
Earlier, I was so worried if the members would like me or not. I was a mess of sin. I was
a coward. I did not love the spirit of members. I was worried if people liked my sermon.
Useless dirty rags. I am grateful to God. My heart is happy. I am crying, yet I am happy.
Whether people like me or not, I receive the power and the grace of God so I can try to
love the people of God.
In Greek, metanoia —repentance… Meta=transform. Noia=heart, mind, shimjeong.
Repentance. Up to now, I wanted to be glorified. My mind died. I wanted to be glorified.
I am transformed. Now, THY will be done, THY kingdom come. Not mine. Meta-noia.
Transformation of the heart. I have to take out my stiff heart. By the grace of TP, I can
love. It is not really the love between brothers/sisters. I reached that shimjeong. It is a
transformation. It is not important how proud I am. I, I, I. Instead of that, we should be
concerned with THY glory. I really hope that this church discovers repentance again.
I want to save many people. However, I cannot save people, only the blood of TP can
do that. We have done nothing. We want to do at least our 5% responsibility. However
getting that portion of responsibility is a grace from God.
Next time, please try to have that kind of heart when you meet TP. Nobody can be
perfect, however try. TP will cover for you. You have to have the heart to give the glory
to God and TP. We want to say that my actions would be the proof that I loved God.
Look at me. I wear a white top and black bottom. If you can see me spiritually, you can
see the blood that is covering me. It is only because of the painful indemnity course of
TP that we are here. When I look at my wife, I do not feel that I am worthy of the grace I
received. It is only because of the suffering of TP, that the 2G can exist, that I can exist.
We have nothing to be proud of. Yet we are very arrogant. We are filled with arrogance
in our minds. After repentance, look at your heart. You may feel that you are proud that
you repented. Be careful. Instead, go through a life of prayer,and gratitude. Buy that
dream instead.
Cham bo mo nim Ok Mansei.
If we have the time, we could repent. At some other time.
I am a true son. I am a sinner. I cannot come before TP or God without the blood of TP.
If you feel the same way as I, you re my true Brothers and Sisters.